SEA TO ME

DEEP RED SEASCAPE

Gouache on Paper

Detail

 

The deep red sea

who ‘lies’ in front of me.

 

The deep red sea,

is running after me.

Trying to break me,

trying to turn me gray.

 

The deep deep red,

stay away from me.

 

Bitterness, guilt and red anger,

why bring this to me?

Oh deep red beautiful sea,

please stay away from me.

 

Don’t force me to bend,

like a tree I’ll just break.

Deep deep red sea,

I’m bleeding blue tears.

 

Please stay away,

deep red sea.

Stay away from me.

 

Compressed charcoal and impasto on Paper

Detail

Compressed charcoal and impasto on Paper

Detail

Compressed charcoal and impasto on Paper

Detail

Compressed charcoal and impasto on Paper

Detail

Compressed charcoal and impasto on paper

Detail

Compressed charcoal and impasto on paper

Detail

SEA ROOM

Wall Two & Four

Compressed charcoal and white pigment on handmade paper

7' x 7'

Four oversized drawings come together to form walls enclosing their own space. Four drawings expressing, oppression, submersion, realization and eventual escape from an overpowering emotional sea. Underneath each drawing written in black four nightmares which began each one.

 

The first drawing a black tidal wave on the pinnacle of breaking down, in the nightmare I could see it and was in its path of destruction and certain death when it broke. The second drawing the heavy submersion in a sea of black never knowing which way was up. The third drawing the new knowledge of having to give in to the sea of darkness and swim with it currents if I were ever to make it back to shore. The fourth drawing having reached the shore with knowledge of survival, weak and exhausted but alive.

 

The drawings of the sea echo the physical fight I had gone through a year before when one of my miscarriages had left me fighting for life as unstoppable blood hemorrhaged from my body. I had fought for my life but, it would take me more time to survive emotional seas that still took me under from miscarriages that left me with loses untold.

 

The four drawings received the Pamela Ovens award in 1987 judged by Leon Kossoff.

Wall two detail

 

Detail showing writing underneath almost obliterated by the drawing.

Wall one detail

 

Detail illustrating the stress endured by the paper, layers of the surface giving way from drawing to reveal layers below that gave way to layers below them.

© Denise Evans. 2017

Wall Three

Compressed charcoal and white pigment on handmade paper

7' x 5'

Wall Two

Compressed charcoal and white pigment on handmade paper

7' x 7'