SEA TO ME

EMOTIONAL WAVES

SEA TO ME

SEA TO ME

Compressed Charcoal, Titanium White Pigment, Pen & Ink on Paper

Sea To Me (1987)

Emotional Seas united dreams and images. SEA ROOM a work in four parts, four oversized black and white drawings (8’ x 6’ compressed charcoal and titanium white pigment on handmade paper) expressed nightmares she could never seem to escape. Sea gave her the opportunity to explore the emotions caused by reality and the symbolism that resulted during dreams.

Each drawing individually expressed the oppression, submersion, realization and eventual escape from an overpowering emotional sea. Below each drawing in writing were written the poetry resulted from each dream.

When hung from above the four oversized drawings form their own enclosed room, the hanging drawings were exhibited at the Tom Allen Center in London. These artworks won the Pamela Ovens award in 1987 judged by Leon Kossoff.

SEA ROOM

FOUR OVERSIZE DRAWINGS
LONDON, 1987

POETRY NOCTURNAL

Each oversized drawing began with its poetry.

Swimming to the side,
I can see that it’s growing.
I can feel it building up.

MY GOD

There is no time;
it’s at least twenty feet high.

It’s breaking on top of me.
The crests are beginning to form.

It’s turning back on itself.
It’s going to crash on me.

I can see that it’s heavy.

It’s going to crush me!

…and I swim,
try to swim with the flow.

The water is calmer,
but the beach is a long way to go.
I feel tired,
but I know,

It’s the house I must reach.
The house on the hill.

Then to the beach, to the sand.
It’s only a distance away.

I am rising up and down.
The waves are beginning to form.

I must keep in the flow.
Keep in time.
I know if I hesitate,
I will drown.

It’s coming;
the wave,

it’s rising,
it’s getting bigger.

Keep with it.
Keep in time.
Let it take you.
Let it take you into safety.

It is!

I am riding the wave!
It has me and is about to chuck me onto the beach.
I can feel the sand on my belly,

I pull up my legs and run.

RUN

for my life to get away from the wave behind.
The one there to crush me if I hesitate.

It’s rolling over,
and I hold my breath.

 

It’s taking me under,
turning me about,

I cannot breathe.
I am in water,
it pushes me forward,
onto the shore.

As it leaves,
I feel it drag my body back.

It’s calm for a moment.
I can take a breath.
A deadly silence,
as it builds all its Power.

CRASH

It’s on me,
turning me round.
Stopping me breathing,
taking life from me.

And soon as it is here;
it has gone.
Enough time to take a breath.
No time to gather strength.

SMASH

It lays heavy on me.
Crushing my bones.
Pulling me to pieces.

I can see a wall in front of me.
A wall that will feel me crash upon it.

I’ve got to get a way;
find a means of escape,
before it takes me,

I know what I will do….

Stairs appear at the side of me.
A means of escape,
I’ve got to get to them.

Fight against the tide.
I must do it in stages.
A bit at a time,

Let the water cover me,
and bide my time.

As it subsides;
goes back to build strength,
I take a breath,
and crawl to the side.

Grab the railings,
and pull myself on to the first step.

The water Roars and covers me.
I keep my hands tight,
let it go over me and let it return.

Then I take a breath,
the next step I try.

The tide is rising,
rising in time with me.
Again and again it covers me,
trying to crush my soul.

I try and keep rigid,
keep hold of my escape.

I am so tired.

It’s beginning to roar,
so much so I wish death would come easily,
and spare me of holding on.

It covers me again and again.
All I know is to keep going on.

Then, there before me is the promenade.

I am safe,

as I crawl on the floor and glad to be alive.
People walk pass and ignore me.
They are unaware of how I got here.
I pull myself together and I walk away from the sea.

DEEP RED SEA

IT CAME TO ME

SEA TO ME

The deep red sea
who ‘lies’ in front of me.

The deep red sea,
is running after me.
Trying to break me,
trying to turn me gray.

The deep deep red,
stay away from me.

Bitterness, guilt and red anger,
why bring this to me?
Oh deep red beautiful sea,
please stay away from me.

Don’t force me to bend,
like a tree I’ll just break.
Deep deep red sea,
I’m bleeding blue tears.

Please stay away,
deep red sea.
Stay away from me.

SEA TO ME

SITTING DOWN ON THE BEACH

AND NOW HERE I AM
UP HERE SITTING DOWN ON THE BEACH

 

I’M WATCHING YOU
WATCHING YOUR MOVES
REMEMBERING THE WAY LIGHT REFLECTS ON YOUR SURFACE

 

TAKING NOTES
JOTTING THEM DOWN
DOING A SKETCH

 

I’M LOOKING AT YOU
AND AT THIS DISTANCE (AWAY FROM YOU)
YOUR WAVES THAT YOU THREATEN
ARE MEEK IN ATTACK

 

THEY CANNOT REACH ME
AS I TAKE NOTES IN MY BOOK

 

A SMALL SKETCH OF WATCHING YOUR MOVES
YOU SEEM SO SMALL AS YOU CRAWL UP THE BEACH
TRYING TO GET TO ME

 

BUT I KNOW THE TIDES
I KNOW WHERE YOU END
AND I KNOW WHERE I BEGIN

HA HA


SAFE NOW

And I feel safe
I know I am safe
I am on dry land
Where I command myself

I walk as I please
Do as I please
Move as I please

If I want to tumble
Be turned about
It will be me who decides

I bid you farewell
But not goodbye

I know you will always
Move and threaten the shore

RETROSPECTIVE

Sea Room – Emotional Waves as part of the Retrospective galleries was followed by the Dreams of Reality | Reality of Dreams – Insights From The Nights artwork.