I Woke Up And Found Myself Here
I WOKE UP AND FOUND MYSELF HERE

An Oil Paintings Three Years In Creation.

LONG ROAD TO GOODBYE

It wouldn’t be until late 2017 that the artist was able to return to her work after experiencing a respite from an disease that had kept from her painting for nearly 15 years. Working through pain, spasm and much lessoned seizures her times never been wasted as she worked on canvases she had only ever been able to make as preliminary sketches, some sketches she’d created on her iPhone at home and in hospital beds.

In these recent oil paintings by the artist there is distinct play on opposites, light verses dark, day verses night, negative verses positive and lines which were black become white. She is showing us what happens when our lives are flipped by a flick of a switch which sends electricity as a shock within her brain. How easily reality can be changed and how susceptible our entire being becomes.

The artists return to her studio birthing her new imagery, began in the freezing cold of January 2017, after a grand mal seizure lasting more than 45 minutes. On that day after that one particular grand seizure, she came back into this world after being gone so long, with no long or short-term memory, only knowing her language of communication was 2-dimensional. To know knowledge and bring about clarity, she scrambled searching for a scrap of watercolor paper, holding a HB pencil and her Winsor & Newton watercolor pan sets in her hands she painted her first watercolors she’d created in 15 years.

vulnerable
VULERNABLE

iPhone Drawing In Bed
Drawn in the days following the seizure

I WOKE UP AND FOUND MYSELF HERE
I WOKE UP AND FOUND MYSELF HERE

Watercolor on Paper
Painted in the days following the seizure

Emerging From There to Here
EMERGENCE FROM THERE TO HERE

Watercolor On Paper Painted in the Days Following the Grand Mal Seizures

In some works eyes are distant looking out from within there is gentle confusion, a sense of loneliness but asking us if we would care to step in. She is using not so primitive symbolism, the spiral a basis of life and creation, the beginning and no end of the golden ratio as it spirals out. Lines which are the mouth and the breast bone view as birds in flight which harken back to her artworks in the gallery Wings – Broken Flight. There are lines which undulate like waves of water but instead waves of electrical current within a brain.

There is complexity to her paintings and should never be taken for face value, always in her work there are multitude of layers, a multitude of meanings no matter how simple they first appear. Her paintings are works to meditate on, getting lost in your own world of poetry and that is by design, the artist provides a door for the viewer to enter in free she never dictates.

Preliminary drawings

drawn on her iPhone-screen between seizures using only her thumb

completed paintings


new work

painting in pain and seizure

An Absence Of Light
Absence Of light

Oil On Canvas (29" x 47")

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I Woke Up And Found Myself Here
I Woke Up And Found Myself Here

Oil on Canvas (60" x 77")

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Seizure Nights
Seizure Nights

Oil on Canvas (33" X 46")

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BETWEEN TWO WORLDS
Between Two Worlds

IN THE MIDDLE OF THERE AND HERE Oil Painting ("23 x 27")

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as the sun
As the Sunsets

Oil On Canvas (36" x 48")

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as the sun
As The Sunrises

Oil On Canvas (36" x 48")

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FACE OF ADVERSITY
FACE OF ADVERSITY

Oil on Canvas (23" x 27")

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NIGHT OF ACHE
Night Of Ache

Oil on Canvas (17" x 18")

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TO DREAM
To Dream

Oil on Canvas ("33 x 46")

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IN THE THICKET OF IT
In The Thicket Of It

Oil on Canvas (23" x 27")

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Restless At Night
Restless At Night

Oil on Canvas ( 23" x 27")

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BRAINWAVES
Brainwaves

Oil on Canvas (23" x 27")

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SUBMERSED
Submersed

On on Canvas (23" x 27")

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LOOKING BACK (IT'S BLACK)
Looking Back (It’s Black)

Oil on Canvas (23" x 27")

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TEARS AT NIGHT
Tears At Night

Oil on Canvas (48" x 70")

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BEHIND THE CURTAINS IT'S GREY
Behind The Curtain Its Grey

Oil On Canvas (25" x 43")

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BEHIND THE CURTAINS IT'S DARK
Behind The Curtain Its Dark

Oil on Canvas (25" x 43")

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COLLECTORS

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Original oil paintings available for purchase from the artists most recent collections in her latest period Working In Pain. These paintings have proven her hardest to come to fruition but, unlike before they are coming to fruition. These years have left her juxtaposed between her painting studio and intensive care units. A new type of brain surgery performed by Kansas University Medical for Epilepsy could end her seizures. She waits patiently as testing is performed in hope this new type of surgery could calm her savage brain from uncontrollable seizures and body spasms that have left her body bruised and fractured. Free from seizures would leave her only to fight the neurological illness that leaves her body swamped in pain, spasm and disability; this dream of a future would be life changing.